I recently read an article on waiting. Most of our lives we are waiting for something to happen. I am waiting to start school and then after school I’ll be waiting to start my job and then after that I’ll be waiting to go on summer break to make work and travel and then I’ll be tired from traveling and I’ll be waiting to get back to work and make money, and then the cycle will repeat with slight variation.
Putting it out there that way really sounds boring and predictable. Waiting means I know what is going to happen in my life., which I do not. Waiting is how I have lived a lot of my life and it is also why I have been heart broken by my own expectations.
While you’re waiting for life, life is happening. Today I woke up frustrated and stressed out about money. I kept thinking about the house I would live in while going to school in Portland and how I would have no money for it; but this is not true. How can it be, I’m not living in the moment where I’m required to be in Portland and have a house. After walking my puppy to the dog park and having some time to blow off a little steam, I had the silly and extremely obvious epiphany that so far my day has been wonderful, I’m so lucky to wake up in good health with a roof over my head. Yes cliché, but it’s so true. This whole idea is similar to what I’m talking about with body image and weight loss expectations. Instead of worrying about what I will look like in a month it’s more productive to think about how strong and dedicated I am feeling today.
Life is about today. Right now. This wonderful moment that I soak up as I type these words. Mindfulness is not a new concept but everyone forgets it. I wish I had the answer for how to constantly live in the now. The best that you can do is your best. Just be so grateful for the small things you have, and be proud that today you got up and did something.
Simple and short post today. Next post will be about the artist statement – loved by gallery owner, hated by most artists.