http://feathr.com/f/158To be a fine artist or not to be. This is a question I ponder quite frequently. I am and always will be an artist. The word fine attached to it adds a stigma of knowledge, sophistication, conceptual and sometimes gallery representation. But what if I want my art to function both commercially and "fine artly?" Some artists have been successful, my hero Yayoi Kusama does it quite well. Obviously I am not of that status, but I strive to be. She is first and foremost a fine artist, her work is beyond visually pleasing. The thing I like most about her work is it touches on mental health issues. Her works acts as a stimulus, a constant for the wandering anxiety prone mind; a mind like my own.
The wallpaper and textiles that I design are an ode to the wandering mind. I always envision them covering everything like a Christo and Jeanne-Claude piece. Being completely emerged in something takes away the anxiety. My subject matter within these wallpaper and textile designs has always been a conversation between feminism and formalism. I have always had a sort of sexual anxiety and I find I face that reality through my repetitious designs.
On a whim I entered a competition for wallpaper artists. I wondered if I would be taken seriously as a fine artist, so naturally I decided to blog about it. The things is I don't know, and the reality is most people won't give a fuck what kind of art I make, or if I make it at all. The image saturated culture we are apart of now can make if difficult to find your way as an artist. Questions like, "Should I post this on social media?" or " Will this get lost in the digital abyss?" and "How many likes will this image get?" are a part of my everyday life. It disgusts me and excites me at the same time, it's like the fucking Kardashians.
In the end I came up with the thought that my art will take itself where it wants to be. It is my duty as an artist to make the work and reflect on it. I find that sometimes I get to caught up in the is this the right thing and forget to take a chance. People are not going to see my work if I don't put it out there. With that being said, I hope that you will all take a moment to vote for my designs on the following links. I could be one of ten artists that will make wallpaper for Feathr.com for the year of 2016-17. You can vote daily! Thank you for your support!